I’m shaking
My visions blurred
Something’s stuck in my chest
I can’t breathe
smothered by air
I swallowed the tablet
Waiting in panic
Thirty more minutes
Then I should feel normal again
Everything has a noise now
My heartbeat is too loud
It is pounding too hard
I may just be shattered
And no one would notice
I am sitting here like a stone
I look normal
Yet every cell I have
Is deteriorating so drastically
I can hear them dying
I can hear them screaming for help
I can’t move my limbs
They are not mine now
I can see them
But they are so distant
I can hear my teeth clicking
So loudly in my head
Like a ticking bomb
I feel like it’s going to explode
I think I’m about to die
There’s no air in my lungs
My tongue is dry
My thoughts all tangled
They are shouting at me
Yelling and blaming
My body can’t take it
I may just be dying
I can’t cope with this
Ten more minutes
Until the tablet fulfils its duty
Every muscle I have is on guard
They know I am about to go
My body is rejecting my soul
They want it out
Ten minutes are too long
I am about to collapse
And nobody would notice
This is the end
Dying as a stone
Without a soul
Five more minutes
Goodbye, all
I don’t know what I’m fighting for
Set free my soul
so my body can rest