For how many times
we sob in the dark
Alone
Silent
For how many times
we believe in the person
Who claimed to help
Yet keeps us in suspense
Because they have their own problems too
For how many times
We wait to be saved
Until we are tired of waiting
And we only fall deeper
Still left alone
For how many times
we tell ourselves
everything will be okay
When we feel like a wreckage
For how many times
we drag our dead bodies along the way
Just so we can see the light at the end of the tunnel
For how many times
we look fear in the eyes
And cry but never give up
For how many times
we are melting down inside
But still keeping a smile on the outside
For how many times
We betray our heart
Just so we can get a nod
from someone else
For how many times
our tongues deceive our soul
Until we are lost in all the lies
For how many times
we seek death for relief
Yet see the sins we commit
For how many times
we punish ourselves
for the mistakes we made in the past
And hate ourselves for it
For how many times
We forget that we
Are a work in progress
For how many times
we do something over and over again
Until it loses its meaning
For how many times
we say I love you
Repeatedly
Until it becomes an empty promise
For how many times
we break others’ heart
Just so we can protect our own
For how many times
we wail in the shower
Hide in the closet
Cry our lungs out
And come out wearing a mask
For how many times
we hide and hide and hide
Until we disappear
Until the world forgets about us
Until the universe has decided to stop torturing us
For how many times
God closed down one window
And forgets about us
For how many times
we pick up the shattered pieces of yesterday
And try to glue them back together
In vain
For how many times
we feel like we don’t belong
Like a burden
Unwanted
For how many times
the only thing we fear
Is life itself
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