I try so hard to do everything right
I try so hard to survive
But it seems like I can never win with life
What I do today
Getting out of bed
Going to classes
Trying to digest
The rules to survive
Celebrate every little victory
For what?
Today is a forgotten memory
Today is the repeating beat of an elegy
The success of today
Soon becomes the dust of tomorrow
Two years of therapy
No guarantee of recovery
I am dying every day
Again and again
You said you’d help me
But you won’t and you can’t
For all you can say is words
For all you can do is actions that distract
end of the day
I’m still suffering alone
Drowning and dying
Chained to the walls with the monster in me
I’m afraid that you only see
the monster inside me
Sometimes I too believe
I am the beast that deceives
Butterfly Poetry 